I changed my name. Yes, Karolina Maya is a name I choose for myself just two months ago and I like it. I feel deeply connected with my name now. I feel the energy of my new name and I feel it’s really me.
Everything is energy. And that’s the truth for names as well.
I never felt connected with my previous name and I did not know why. There is nothing wrong with the name itself. I quite like it on someone else; not on me though. But because I did not know anything else, I did not pay too much attention to these feelings. It just was what it was.
I’ve come across information about the importance of our names in the past. My natural curiosity led me to read books about meanings of our names, numerology of names and so on. It was always interesting but it never passed that line of being just an interesting topic for me. Until two months ago.
The week of my birthday I started to get strong messages to rebirth and to let go of my name. I did not understand for a while but decided to trust and follow my intuition and my subconscious mind.
And then I got it. Suddenly many things from the past started to make sense. Our family tragic story came to the surface. All dots got connected and I got the full picture.
I knew I was named after my dad’s brother who died in an accident in the military service when he was just 19. I knew I was born within a year after that happened. What I did not know was the powerful Vow that my dad made my mum to keep and name the first child after his dead brother. And the child was Me.
Now I understand that this family tragedy has never been healed. Now I understand why nobody ever spoke about my late uncle, why my dad could not stand any emotions, why he shut his emotions down. Now I understand why I leant so quickly not to cry in front of him and shut my own emotions down.
And more than everything else; now I understand why I always felt the urge to fight for the right to be me. Somewhere deep inside me was the deal that I was born with. The deal to replace someone. That deal took me away from my birth right to be me.
And so I let go of all the old attachments that I had because of that name. From now on I am me.
The learning that I want to share is the importance of the name. Yes, name is energy. Be sure that your name resonates with your soul and support you in what your heart is calling you to do. If it does not, feel free to make your own choice. Let go of the old and chose what is right for you. Do it for yourself!
Love your name! If you love your name, you love yourself. The choice is yours. Love yourself!